I apologize for the incoherence of this entry. I just need some place to spew out random thoughts to the world. Feel free to read it or ignore it, as you choose.
Perhaps I’m starting to recover from shock now. Perhaps. I keep finding myself being mild-mannered and polite to everyone. Of course, that’s a nice thing to do all the time, but what’s the point? If people don’t know that I’m upset, then they can’t help me. I can continue to act as though I were the most boring person on the planet. Actually, I probably am the most boring person on the planet. All I do is go to classes and prepare for going to classes and go to Hillel for services on Friday night and Tuesday morning. I never really do anything else. I want to go to a silent place and read Godel, Escher, Bach cover to cover and do nothing else until I finish. Then I will learn something. I am, as Dr. Feigin put it, letting UCSB get in the way of my education.